Thoughts About Time

     As what Carrie said in her diary in the ever famous series (Carrie Diaries of ETC) , "There’s a brief moment when you first wake where you have no memories - a blissful blank slate, a happy emptiness, but it doesn't last long. And you remember exactly where you are and what you are trying to forget." A short period of time where in you just wake up and everything is clear, but all of a sudden when your conscious mind starts to take over the peace everything is about to be ruined.

     And then everything comes into place after your first solemn moment, you’ll feel the familiar feeling again - pain and heartaches. All the conscious thoughts start to fill your head, like a file in your PC that finished loading. The only thing is, this file is eating too much memory that it slows you down, because the processor really cannot handle the weight of the file. We cannot handle it, we slow down. Maybe because we are thinking of ways on finding an easier way out? Or maybe we are taking it slowly to avoid being hurt more. People say, slowly but surely.

     True enough, slowly but surely. I guess time is still our best weapon. We just need to find the courage to wake up every morning and succumb to the pain of everything we face - might it be a heartbreak, or a family problem, finance, education, friendship. Because every time we face it, we grow accustomed to it and our unconscious minds do things to finally make things better. We might not be aware of it but our hearts are being guarded by our instincts as time passes by, then we become stronger. Then one morning will come when the blank slate will be slightly longer because the pains don’t need to load anymore and that causes the serene moment to prolong and then there comes the conscious thoughts of our everyday living.

     Pain is like a trend, it will stay there and of course it will occupy you inside and out. But as time passes this trend will fade in the background due to period of saturation, it won’t suit your taste anymore. Same thing, you’ll get used to the situation that it just fades to your background like it didn't really matter at all. Give it a shot, wake up in the morning and embrace your tears. Then do the same thing the next morning. A cycle that will get you to continue living because that is how it is. The easiest way out is not always the easiest, and the longest run is not always the longest. But one thing is more important - LEARNING FROM THAT THING THAT MADE YOU SHED THOSE TEARS AND NEVER ENCOUNTER THEM AGAIN.